Hmm...

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Posted by: raphiem Original: 9/6/2006 4:31 PM Views: 16 Comments: 0 eProps: 0 Read Comments Post a Comment Back to Your Xanga Site

Wednesday, September 06, 2006

Seeing as something keeps going wrong with this layout, I see only two possible options:

Find a new layout
Make a new blog someplace else

I'm not sure what I'm going to do at this point. I have much history with this blog, and it'd be nice if I could keep it. It's just that... something keeps going wrong with the damned picture. And in all honesty, there aren't that many nice, working layouts out there for Xanga. *mutter*

Think think think.

I utterly, utterly despite Filipino this quarter. It started out wrongly, and from the look of things, it's not going to be improving any time soon. Crap. Failed a quiz and that damned research. Crap. Crap. Crap.

I have to start studying now, or I'm not going to keep my honors this year. Oh, crap. I must, must, MUST keep getting honors. I must!

Sigh. How I loathe Filipino. Never been good at that subject. Don't see myself getting good at it anytime soon either. It's really quite sad: I rarely speak Filipino, so I fail at it. When I fail at it, I feel horrible, and speak it even less. The less I speak, the lower my scores.

You should hear me speak Filipino. It's absolutely horrendous. Hilarious too(to me anyway). Arrrrrgggggggggggggggghhhhhh.

I've said this before, but I'll say it again: I don't like my class.

I really, really don't like my class.

We get high grades, but I don't like my class.

Some of the people are great, but I still don't like my class.

Maybe a change in seating plan could solve all of this. Maybe. Not likely though.

Oh the violent thoughts in my head. Oddly satisfying, them. Sigh...

I've gotten very... elitist, as of late. This probably has something to do with the aforementioned disuse of Filipino.

Lately, it seems as if the only people I can really talk to are: Henry, Allen, Alfonso, Leonard, and Andrew. Hmm...

Argh. This probably means I should start using Taglish again. If I don't, I'll probably end up friendless or something. Argh.

Right now, I kinda wish I lived in America... or England. Somehow, I get the feeling I'd feel less ostracized(oh thank you, Soc. Sci., for teaching me that word) if I wasn't here.

Honestly, people, do I look like I cannot speak Filipino at all? I remember a friend of mine who IM'd me one day, asking how I was. She spoke to me in English, which, for some reason, sounded so... horribly coming from her. So... forced. It's like the only way we'd be able to understand each other was if she spoke English or something. Argh.

Maybe I am an elitist. It'd explain the 88 in Filipino and Chinese wouldn't it?

Don't worry, it's nothing racist. Like I told Allen, I'm very proud of my roots, but I'd probably express that pride in, as expected, English. Hmm.

Chances are though, I just have a really difficult time with intonation. Filipino and Chinese(especially Chinese) are rife with intonation, while English... not so much. Maybe that explains it all. I'll take up... German or something, and see what happens.

I don't know what's happening to me, but lately, I've been very, very irritated. At this point, I am annoyed with EVERYONE. Yes, that's right, everyone. Except God I guess. But He's not part of this discussion.

I know, I know, I shouldn't be one to judge, but it's just that... everyone's been getting on my nerves more than usual. I can't really hang out with anyone for too long anymore, since sooner or later, I'll get that weird throbbing feeling in my head. Hmm. Now, the backstabbing urge has gotten stronger than ever.

Of course, I know, chances are, people feel the same way about me too. At least it's mutual. Would want to find out what they said about me though. Oh well.

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